Feeling Defeated

Do you ever feel like you aren’t good enough? You’re not doing well at your job, school is ever consuming you, friends are all doing their own thing, chronic illness kicking your ass making everything seem impossible?

How do we not allow the depression, the anxiety, the uncertainty, consume us to the point of despair?

I wish I had the answer, because right now I’m really struggling. I have had more bad pain days the last two weeks than good days. The only thing that is keeping me grounded right now is my belief in Jesus. He hears me and understands; He is my rock. His Grace and everlasting love is something I always treasure. It helps me when I’m having a difficult time. He does not allow us to go through trials in which we are not prepared for or incapable of surviving.

When I was very first diagnosed, almost TEN YEARS ago (wow! Doesn’t seem that long ago) I questioned why this was happening to me. I struggled far worse then with the depression of a new diagnosis and loss of my old life. But eventually, I understood what God was asking of me. He wants me to go through this to learn about how to help and inspire others.

I cannot lose sight of my goals. I want to be a Licensed Professional Counselor to help those who need someone to care and listen to them. I have always been an advocate for mental health awareness and stigma. I want to use my personal struggles to encourage others and also help those who need an ear.

Feeling defeated is easy. It’s what you do with that feeling and how you turn it into something positive that matters. I could say yes, I’ve laid in my bed for over a week because of pain, but I am going down that path to be ungrateful for my struggle. Recognizing you are struggling is important. If you need help, call a friend, a loved one, or if it’s an emergency, 911 may be beneficial.

There is power in your struggle. Don’t let it consume you to the point of negativity. Being a follower of Christ has greatly improved my life and encouraged me to write this post.

Author: Micah

Twenty-something Graduate student living my best life going to school, working, being a cat mom, and kicking chronic illness ass.

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